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Wednesday, March 15th, 2006
11:55 pm	a story Here on this page you will find a story... this is a story from a teacher that I work with about the special education children we all work with! Its great! and I love her and all of them! man!please read it and know why i get up and go to my internship every morning ! It doesnt get any better than this! And my professor is right....I didnt know weather to laugh out of control or cry....the simple way of life the simple way to think...sometimes i wish i was this lucky!!!! ENJOY!!!! I thought you might enjoy a view into the lunch conversation in my room today. You may not know the faces that go with the names, but the whole conversation spiraled out of control within 30 seconds and left me speechless and unsure whether to burst out laughing or crying! Picture my sweet angelic group of polite boys seated around the table eating lunch….. I nicely remind one darling to chew with his mouth closed (as I do multiple times every day). Jaylin, though, has come up with a solution to the mouths-open problem that plagues our class – he tells me I should wear his ear phones and listen to his “gangsta’ rap.” I thank him for the kind offer, but explain that we all should just chew with our mouths closed. Undeterred by my explanation, Jaylin responds with, “You don’t like my gangster rap – I’ll bring you my Cher love songs.” Justin immediately says that Cher is a man. I said, “No, she’s a woman.” Justin argues that his dad says that Cher is gay and should be a man. Dalton pipes in with, “Michael Jackson is a gay fag.” Before I can even take a breath to respond to that one, Jaylin chimes in with, “My brother says Michael Jackson likes kids’ Ding Dongs. I like Twinkies better than Ding Dongs.” Dalton keeps saying, “Michael Jackson is gay” over and over again while Justin adds, “Ohhhh….. He said Michael Jackson likes kids’ Ding Dongs – Miss Click, that means….. “ (I QUICKLY interrupt here with, “I KNOW what it means, Justin, cool it.”) Before the sentence is out of my mouth, Darnez asks, “Are we having Twinkies for snack today? I want Twinkies, I want Twinkies.” Meanwhile, Justin begins chewing with his mouth open again. I decided to let it go this time….. Hope this makes you laugh. If parents only knew what kids repeat from home, they’d never speak again! Have a great day! P.S. Jaylin went to the doctor this morning and upon his return, I inquired as to whether he had his brain refilled or not. He said that today, they refilled his nose instead. Almost afraid to ask, but unable to resist, I asked how that works. He said, (and I quote exactly) “Well, Miss Click, you see, my nose kept running and it ran out of run, so they put more in this morning. They used water this time instead of brain guts. The doctor saves the brain guts for when I get my brain refilled. He just uses water for nose guts.” I can honestly say that I keep learning something new everyday as a teacher! Ps i have been up since 8am lol yay! i love being busy! and working to get some money!!!! so i spoil my pimp! lol Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
Friday, December 2nd, 2005
11:01 am	So i am goin to u of i today! i am super excited but also a lil sad to leave this time...i guess thats how we know we are were we should be! I will miss the ue purdue game! i am very sad about that! and i will miss getting drunk with the girls! but i am crazy about kev and i know i will have a great time cuz i love the guys at his house they are great!!!! i cant wait! xoxoxoxo well got to go! xoxoxoxo!!! Chrissy Current Mood: crazy Current Music: i tunes!!!!!!1 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 30th, 2005
1:03 am	Sometimes i wonder.......... Friends come and friends go but do we ever really forget? I dont think so. But when they are gone from your sight, your ears,and your voice cant reach them, or maybe they left the world and its not that your voice cant reach them its that theirs cant reach you. In the end i think that you miss the sound of someones voice the most. Its how you learned every part of them. Is it fair that they are gone and others who do nothing but selfish acts those who just hurt others to hurt them are still here, no but every person good or bad has a certain amount of time on this earth. thats why everyday you should live it like its your last. Let those you love know that you love them, because you could get a phone call one day sayin they are gone. and even though its not fair that that one person who moved you in such a way is gone they are.....and theres no looking back for them. They say that it get easier as the time goes on but lets be honest it never does does it? just some thoughts that happened to roll right in......or maybe they just never roll out....... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: my anna mix (Comment on this)
Monday, November 28th, 2005
4:45 pm	ï As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:17 am	You are Shanepacsan. You are laid back and sadly competitive, but people seem to like you and you hang out with people as much as you can. You are a Ninja. Yes i knew i wanted to be like shane when i grow up! cept i will never be that cool or that hot! i love ya shane!!!!!!!!! lol that quiz just made me laugh now its nap time more to come on my life when i am ready to write about it! as of right now................well i guess its just all up in the air! Current Mood: blank Current Music: Rent (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
2:49 pm	Is It THANKSGIVING YET????? I guess i cant bitch much.....my best friend/boyfriend is gonna be here in 2 DAYS! and then i get to go home and see all my loves!!! YAY! soo hurry up and get here FRIDAY!!!! Ps 2 days ago it was Warm yesterday we had tornados today is COLD and tomorrow snow maybe? WHAT IS HAPPENING IN THE VILLE? if you know hit me up Current Mood: cold Current Music: sisterhood of the traveling pants sound track (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
8:40 pm	i stole the set up of this from logel! thanks loges 10 years ago - I was 9 and in 3rd grade. My best friend had just come back to school....Kp, there were alot of differences.....I had made friends and so had she. either way it was different. I wanted to be older! and my teacher was a singing nun! yeah thats right i said it a singing nun! we would sing in class...random i know,but i loved it more than anything! My family was smaller then too. I wanted everything! but mainly i wanted music! I was a bi cheerleader and couldnt see myself doing anything else ever! it was my life! and i was in love with a boy a year older than me....Billy Aurthers! yeah i know! he was a football player and some where in my small head i thought we would get married and have lil football/cheerleading babies! wow the things i know now....needless to say i was HAPPY 5 years ago - I was 14 years old and a freshman in high school. I was so scared! Goin to the huge place where i had to deal with a locker.....what would i do! well i would get involved and meet people right? i mean i already knew a bunch from cheering for the untouchables. sooo what could be so scary? I joined the volleyball team! it was awesome! I also joined showchoir.....which at the time i had no idea that it would end up making all the difference in my life! I met a woman whos name was mrs mulder "Ms. K" she was amazing and all i wanted was for her to like me! Before I knew it.... It was Homecoming night and we were taking pictures at my house it was big enough for all of us so why not? Amanda the beautiful one from our group was goin with an older boy.Amanda was the cool one because she was in express the top showchoir and the boy she was goin with was too! The moment he walked in my front door i thought he was BEAUTIFUL!!!....he had red hair blue eyes he was tall and fun! I took tons of pictures and i felt like when i turned around he was looking at me....how could this be tho?He was with the prettiest girl in the room! Amanda was the beautiful one not me! We finished taking pictures and we were off to the dance!!!! well amanda left her beautiful boy...i was pissed even tho at this point i still didnt know his name, how could someone leave him he was.......well everything! That year my next door neighbor chrissy decker was at homecoming...she brought me over to dance with the "COOL OLDER KIDS" I was soo lucky! Then i noticed him again, he was coming over he was dancing next to me. AND THEN HE WAS DANCING WITH ME! WHAT!!!! i know, me the girl from a small grade school who was in the lower showchoir group the akward not to pretty still growing into myself girl...me he was dancing with me! slow fast it didnt matter....we were together.the last dance was to slena Dreamin of you! and then he KISSED me kinda.... I was crazy about him...The next four years were up and downs with us! but we always remained friends i thought...even when i hated him most we were friends. recapp of those for years i got into express my 2nd year!! he got a girlfriend, i got a boyfriend we broke up they had problems, Ms K loved me!, our friend died, He graduated, i was still crazy about him....His name Is KEVIN GRACE! 1 year ago - I was a freshman in college at UE. I was soo scared 6 hrs from home...and i made my life here. I cut people out, sometimes i even cut my family out...what did i need from any of them i had the best friends here, sam jenna mel logel and i had Phi mu! I didnt need anything else! I was SOOO HAPPY HERE! then 2nd semster came....I met Ray Baker....i dont think i need to say anymore than that! i was crazy about him. we however didnt work out....he was scared and going to england next fall...and had family and work stuff in the summer...we did however spend most of our last month together. I went to Fiji formal! AHHHH it was sooo fun! me and sam jason and ray had a suite! I was wasted! we had great food! and even better people around us! I was upset when we had to leave....i had to leave behind what me and ray were that day.....because now we were nothing to eachother but friends! The day i got home from fiji formal i got a phone call from my mom........it was the worest 4 words i ever heard!....Chrissy Ms K died today. WHAT!!!! NO NOT MY MS K, NOT MY MOM, NOT MY TEACHER, NOT MY INSPRIATION, NOT MY LOVE FOR MUSIC! i called friends we cryed i wanted to be home that day but my parents werent coming to get me till the next day....I called kevin and james.....i didnt know what to do.....I went home that night they had a practice for the funeral we were all goin to sing one last time for her! It was the most amazing thing ever....Kevin couldnt be there he called me as we were talkin about her you know our favorite times! said i would see him tomorrow! When i walked in....I couldnt breathe....then i looked over and saw him....i cryed when i huged him so did he....we kinda of said our byes to our teacher, our mom, our inspriation, OUR FRIEND......me and kev spent the rest of the summer together almost everyday....it was a lil crazy. I cant even remember when we as friends were we as just kinda together....and then at the very end of the summer we were us....And i Happy!!! Oh and Me and katy may spent alot of the summer together laughing I had a blast! I love her! Then i went back to all my buddies at ue yesterday - I went to all my classes! YAY! I dont know how i feel about music ....that came out wrong i dont know how i feel about singing any more my love for music will remain for always! I am taking huge steps with Phi Mu! I am still with Kevin!!! yay and still head over heels for him! and to be honest he is pretty crazy about me too! YAY! I need to get a job! I love u of i and those Alpha delta Phi boys! I love Phi Mu and evansville! no i am not transfering! I ate dinner with my roommates! I went to taco bell with shay! and had a great talk! kinda talked to kevin.....fell in love with a llama! Loved sam went to bed early! oh and i love Jenny Jones! oh and i did stuff for the tornado victums! oh and i love my greek family + andrea lol 15 songs i know all the words to (the question is what dont i know the words too): 1. the wicked sound track! 2. Seasons of Love-Rent 3. God Bless the Broken Road -Rascal Flatts 4. SKIN-Rascal Flatts 5. Don't Take the Girl-Tim McGraw 6. Bridge over trouble water 7. White Houses-Vanessa Carlton 8. My Hump-Black Eyed Peas 9. Better together/Bannanna Pancakes- jack Johnson 10. So you are to me- East mountin south 11. Gods will-Martina Mcbride 12. Lifetime- Better then Ezra 13. Tequila Makes Her Clothes Come Off- Joe Nichols 14. Concrete Angel 15. Dream Girl- Dave Matthews! 6 things I'd do with a millon bucks: 1. Pay some bills for my mom and dad and send my siblings to college! 2. Send my parents on a real vacation...just them...anywhere in the world although I know they would take us/ Go on a real Family Vaction! 3. Donate to my Highschool music program 4. Take kevin some where he really would love Europe or to Denver lol so he can snow board and.... 5. donate to the lupus fond! 6. go see wicked/ go see something on broadway! 10 places to run away to: 1. Sam 2. Shay 3. U or I where my heart is!....Kevin 4. Home Chicago 5. My mom 6 Phi Mu 7.Pam 8 KP 9 Julie 10 Katie may!!! 5 favorite TV shows (as of right now): 1. Football/ any thing on espn 2. Extreme Makeover Home Edition-i'm a life cryer! 3. Gilmore girls 4. One Tree Hill 5. anything on the wb! 5 Joys: 1. my family at home 2. Kevin/U of I 3. Kids! 4. Evansville 5. Phi Mu 5 favorite toys: 1. my computer 2. my cell phone 3. books 4. cd player 5. crayons/markers/paint 5 things i cannot stand: 1. hypocrites 2. being late 3. The toilet seat still up! 4. living in a mess! 5. People who Just dont get it!!!!! 5 ways to spend time with the person you care about/love 1 Go out to dinner at a nice place and sit/walking tlaking laughing on the beach looking at the skyline 2 Going to see a play or musical 3 sitting in bed laughing just in sweats 4 being under the stars....... 5 just being together Long one this time! life is good....i'll write more later! Current Mood: calm Current Music: Wicked! (Comment on this)
Monday, October 31st, 2005
12:37 am	So lately i have been lost! no lie really lost! things that have happened that i havent ever had the chance to cope with just came out of no where! but i was talkin to shay and i think she is right like how best friends usually are.....soo here are my 5 good things that happened today! 1 I got to catch up with shay 2 me and SAM went to mcdonalds lol i know 3 Kevin said he would get me ice cream from rainbow cone! lol 4 I talked to julie who....well who just made it a lil clearer! 5 I hug with twin and some cool kids! yay cool kids! 6 i have alot of people who love me! 7 it was warmer today! your right shay that does make you feel good! Current Mood: calm Current Music: better when we're together jack johnson (Comment on this)
Monday, October 17th, 2005
4:54 pm	Auto response from KeeKs1586: Life is too short to wake up in the morning w/regrets, so love the people who treat u right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy, they just promised it would be worth it... I love you kp! Current Mood: groggy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
11:45 am	WIsdom and education When you fell burdened by formal education, do not be quick to cast it aside. What is happening is a great surge in your growth and consciousness that is screaming out for immediate and total exploration. You must remember that all other learners have traveled the same path. And though all true learners have felt this urge to strike out on their own formal education they did not abandoned it! Still, formal education will not inform your spirit and make you full. So, along with knowledge you must seek wisdom. Knowledge is multiple, wisdom is singular. Knowledge is words, wisdom is silent. Knowledge is standing outside, understanding what is seen, Wisdom is standing at the center knowing what is not see. No Person can be whole without both dimensions of learning. There are many ways to seek wisdom. there is travel, there is service. There is staring into the eyes of children and elders and lovers and strangers. There is sitting silently in one spot and there is being swept along in lifes turbulent current. Life itself will grant you wisdom in ways you may neither understand nor choose. It is up to you to be open to all these sources of wisdom and to embrace them with your whole heart. So do not disparage the lessons of either the schooled or the unschooled. Those who have less formal education may have learned some single thing more deeply, or they may have embarked early upon the search for wisdom. In their uniqueness, they have discovered something special about life, and it is your to experience if you are open to what they have to teach. Remember the words the musician who was asked which was greater knowledge or wisdom? He answered "Without knowledge I could not play the violin, But without wisdom I could not play music" Place yourself among those who carry on their lives with passion , and true learning will take place, no matter how humble or exalted the setting. But no matter what path you follow, do NOT be ashamed of your learning. In some corner or your life, you know more about something than anyone else on earth! The true measure or your education is not what you know, but how you share what you know with others!!!! ~Simple Truths Kent Nerburn I was feelin down about school.....I just got repumped! Heres to hopefully what comes to be a GREAT week! Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: the bells on campus! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
1:10 am	COOKIES At an airport one night with several long hours before her flight, she hunted for a book in an airport shop, bought a bag of cookies and found a place to drop. She was engrossed in her book but happened to see that the man sitting beside her, as bold as could be, grabbed a cookie or two from the bag in between, which she tried to ignore to avoid a scene. So she munched the cookies and watched the clock, As the gutsy cookie thief diminished her stock, she was getting more irritated as the minutes ticked by, thinking, "If I wasn't so nice, I would blacken his eye." With each cookie she took, he took one too, when only one was left, she wondered what he would do. With a smile on his face, and a nervous laugh, he took the last cookie and broke it in half. He offered her half, as he ate the other. She snatched it from him and thought....ooh, brother! This guy had some nerve and he's also rude, Why he didn't even show any gratitude! She had never known when she been so galled, And sighed with relief when her flight was called. She gathered her belongings and headed to the gate, Refusing to look back at the thieving ingrate. She boarded the plane, and sank in her seat. Then she sought her book, which was almost complete. As she reached in her baggage, she gasped with surprise. There was her bag of cookies in front of her eyes. If mine are here, she moaned in despair, the others were his and he tried to share. Too late to apologize, she realized with grief, that she was the rude one, the ingrate, the thief! How many times have we absolutely known that something was a certain way? Only to discover later that what we believed to be true....was not? Think about it! Current Mood: good (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 2nd, 2005
1:46 am	PurpleAce04: I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:-) I cried today because I thought of you and I miss you so much it's sick!! Love ya babe! MRs cLuELeSs123: oh my goodness PurpleAce04: lol im sorry MRs cLuELeSs123: no no its cool PurpleAce04: lol MRs cLuELeSs123: I miss you too MRs cLuELeSs123: lol PurpleAce04: i miss you more!!! MRs cLuELeSs123: NO WAY MRs cLuELeSs123: when are you comin here? PurpleAce04: I have no idea, hopefully soon though MRs cLuELeSs123: good MRs cLuELeSs123: if gas goes down PurpleAce04: and when I do we definitely need to prtay! PurpleAce04: lol PurpleAce04: partay* MRs cLuELeSs123: HELL YEAH !!!!!!!!!! PurpleAce04: lol MRs cLuELeSs123: you will be sooooooooooooooo WASTED PurpleAce04: lol MRs cLuELeSs123: sick with me kid PurpleAce04: i know PurpleAce04: ok i will PurpleAce04: lol PurpleAce04: just wanted to say hi and tell ya that I love ya! MRs cLuELeSs123: I LOVE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!!! PurpleAce04: YAY PurpleAce04: lol MRs cLuELeSs123: XOXOXOXOXOXO MRs cLuELeSs123: night PurpleAce04: right bac at ya PurpleAce04: you too MRs cLuELeSs123: later my love MRs cLuELeSs123: you are the best PurpleAce04: bye sweetie PurpleAce04: you too MRs cLuELeSs123: keep smilin we are all thinkin of you PurpleAce04: ok i will love ya :-) Just goes to show.....that no matter near or far your sisters are there for you and love you more than you will ever know!!!!! THis weekend ='s awesome MORE TO COME LATER!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: calm (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 29th, 2005
3:20 am	I love my big sister she is .....PRETTY MUCH AMAZING!!!! Auto response from SBFuePT4: Knights of Columbus, I love my little sister!!! Had a great time tonight Chrissy! I heart you! I LOVE YOU MARIA!!!!! PS thank you soooooooooo much for all your help tonight! i do really feel alot better thanks ur the best!!!!!!!!!! ps kevin grace is amazing!!!!!!!! Current Mood: happy (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 25th, 2005
2:09 am	"for a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. but there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. this perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness. happiness is the way. so treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one. happiness is a journy, not a destination." -souza Well i hate everything enough said tomorrow is a new day....I hope! ok well later Current Mood: blah (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 19th, 2005
1:11 am	so everyone some of the writtin in the last entry was Katy Hales she just states everything so beautifully! I love her soo much! Had the best weekend EVER!!!!!!! YAY! ummmmmmmm...more about it later! Thanks to everyone who played a part in my weekend you all rock my face off! XOXOXOXO' More later! Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Friday, September 16th, 2005
10:56 am	Home is where your HEART is......... thats why I am goin to U of I this weekend! YAY! Its here.... Its Today..... TODAY IS THE DAY!!!!!!!!!!! U of I with some of my fav people to see some of my fav. people! YAY!!! Current Mood: bouncy (Comment on this)
7:41 am	Yay its U of I day!!!!!!! I love Jill EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ps chrissy eve she makes me laugh! Heres to a great Weekend!!!!! Current Mood: excited (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 15th, 2005
1:47 am	I want to be a doctor... but turns out my roomie and i are alcoholics and im getting trashed on wine instead of studying YAY WINE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: drunk (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
3:08 am	Its so crazy how one min. you swear you will never love again...that love is just not for you....and the next your head over heels for the one you always thought you were meant to be with,cept this time its not a dream.....its real life hes standing there wanting you back just as much as you want him. And in the mist of things you try to hold him an arms length away just incase. The hurt from before was so great and you dont know if your body your mind your HEART can handle another break like last time. but in the mean time he pulls you in closer and closer....until in the moments breath you crazy about him. You dream about him, you think of him all the time, and all you really want is for him to be happy. Happier than he has ever been before. You want to be his everything, and so you try to make him as happy as possible. Behind that he is dreamin of you too, and wishing he could make you happier than you have ever been! Its the essence of each other that makes one happy! But he has such beautiful dreams that you would never ever want to hold him from. And you have dreams and a plan and a life that you always saw for yourself...but for some reason it doesnt matter about you....its only him..him and his smile and his laugh and his...everything! Even though you crossed your heart and swore up and down you'd never fall this fast for someone again... it's happened.. But for the first time... in years... you've let your heart take the wheel and steer. And you're in overdrive...complete with that smile of yours that you just can't seem to smear off.... Because somehow, (for the reasons you're starting to see more clearly)...he found his way straight to your heart when you least expected it... God i am crazy about you If you only knew....I hope you do! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO 4 days! Missing you! Current Mood: loved (2 Comments |Comment on this)
3:08 am	Love this song! YAY Kevin! I would dig a hole all the way to China Unless of course I was there then I’d dig my way home If by diggin’ I could steal the wind from the sails of the greedy men who ruled the world Still you’re my best friend And after a good, good drunk You and me wake up and make love after a deep sleep Where I was Dreamin’, I was Dreamin’ Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl I was feelin’ like a creep As I watched you asleep Face down in the grass, in the park, in the middle of a hot afternoon Your top was untied And I thought how nice It’d be to follow the sweat down your spine You’re like my best friend Aww after a good, good drunk You and me wake up and make love after a deep sleep Where I was Dreamin’, I was Dreamin’ Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl Caught by a wave my back to the ocean it knocks me off my feet and just as I find my footing here you come again Dreamgirl, aww Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl, Dreamgirl Current Mood: loved (Comment on this)